On Wasting Gold

"It's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember."

It is my friend's YM status today. I can't believe how until now, two months after graduation, I am still battling with myself to forget someone in order to move on and be happy with what I am, with what I have now, EVEN WITHOUT HIM. Correction, I am happy now. It's just that sometimes, out of the blue, I think about him (but not the usual thinking-about-him as I used to think about him before) For example, I read this status from my friend, I remembered him.

The thing is: I believe I can live well without him. I have a lot of things to do to just continue thinking about him. I am currenly making this blog all because I want to reflect, because my friend's YM status is worth reflecting about.

Living without him is not the issue now. It is more of, "nasasayangan lang ako sa mahigit isang taong ginugol ko para sa taong ito, para mauwi lang sa WALA." I mean, I spent most of my time with him. I could have spent it with other friends. C'est dommage.

I want to forget, not because I hate him. It's more of feeling nothing, not love, not anger, not hatred, a bit of bitterness perhaps. But more of bitterness because I wasted so much time, having spent my time with a guy who I think was not worth it anyway. A guy who I considered a friend but did not regard me as his friend.

It's hard to forget especially if you keep on remembering you wasted TIME! I wasted gold. I wasted gold.

"It's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember."