:(

This is not the time to rant but I just can't help it. It is not even right to rant. But, I feel like I have not been performing well (not as well as I expected and wanted) with the previous midterms in Persons, Crim and StatCon.

I don't know. Maybe, I am just pressured with the grades I need to maintain.

But, upon reflection, it is not just the grades or the maintenance of my scholarship. Of course they are included BUT.

BUT I CAN'T FAIL THE GENEROUS AND KIND-HEARTED PEOPLE WHO HAVE GIVEN ME THE GIFT AND THE OPPORTUNITY TO PURSUE MY DREAM. I CAN'T FAIL MY BENEFACTORS. I CAN'T FAIL THE PROFESSORS AND PEOPLE WHO TRUSTED ME AND GAVE ME GOOD (IF NOT GREAT) RECOMMENDATION LETTERS. I CAN'T FAIL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS. MOST OF ALL (OR WORST OF ALL) I CAN'T FAIL MY SELF. I CAN'T FAIL THIS DREAM. (i don't think i'm failing. i wish it is right. but i am underperforming and i don't know why. i read the books. i read them twice.) :((((

AND WHEN YOU HAVE A DREAM YOU WORK HARD FOR IT. I KNOW I HAVE WORKED HARD ENOUGH. I COULD HAVE WORKED TOO HARD TO GET MY GOALS.

I wish this is all paranoia. I don't want to be there, and suddenly be not there. Law School is sweet and I am loving this sweetness. I hope it loves me back.

I am in it for my dream. And I am and should be in it until the end.

I wish I have the friends who were with me when deciding to really do all the things to make it to Ateneo Law School.

MAGIS!!! :(