Well, I see them on Facebook. I talk to them through YM, Skype, or text messages. My friends, I mean. Aside from the fact that I have been busy these past months, there is just this simple fact that distance is really one of the big issues friends need to deal with after graduation. From my Philosophy classes, distance can be both a matter of space and time. Of course, we are not bound to see each other if we are living miles away from each other, if we are working in different cities, if we are studying in different schools. Nowadays, the distance between me and some friends seem very distinct that we really do not have the opportunity to meet physically. I hate the fact that whenever either of the party would have the time, laziness comes in. I also have this laziness on my part. If it is going to take me almost 2 hours to get to my friend’s place, I would rather “postpone” that meeting some other time, when I will have “more time.” The problem now comes in, when will that “more time” come and how am I to distinguish when a given time is actually “more” than what other opportunities would provide.
Because of my being so far away (or at least I feel this way) and having not much time:
1. I have not returned yet my friend’s DVD, which I should return in UPD. I have not sat in in her class. Sorry Mika.
2. I have not returned yet my friend’s NMAT reviewers which I borrowed from long time ago. Sorry Micha.
3. I always fail to meet this friend I really miss just because we both do not have time and we both are lazy. Even if, I desperately need and want to see you. You know who you are. Ow em gee, I miss you. But our midterms is coming and I am afraid we will be seeing each other after the semester, but after the semester, we might not be in Manila.
4. Number four will be a lot of et cetera.
However, I am really happy right now, having met awesome people from my block, from Ateneo Law School and from my former work. I am just a bit bothered or out mere curiosity, when will I see them again? Good thing there is Harry Potter, I will get to see some friends.
Because I also miss you Philo: Or probably this is a concrete example of the limitedness of being and I need to learn to totally enjoy “ici et maintenant” “hic et nunc” without being so trapped with an awesome past from which I can not totally move on from (I don’t think I need to move on anyway. I just need to deal with it.)
I remember a song from grade school which goes like this, “Make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the other’s gold.” I am missing my gold. I know I am on my way to acquiring my new golds but I am really missing the old golds I have.
It is up to me to make Consti, Person, Crim, LegRes, LegProf, Philo, StatCon to make all these sacrifices worth it.
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