My January and February (so far) 2013
1. I got my dream internship. It meant a lot for me. God knows how I worked hard preparing my resumes and commuting to personally hand my application envelopes in Makati, Taguig and Ortigas. One interview I had was on the same day I took my Tax midterms. I know it had a detrimental effect on my exam but as my forever mantra would say: charge it to experience. I really enjoyed applying because I got to see offices. I enjoyed having interviews because it somehow tested my ability to answer unexpected questions and hold conversations without boring the interviewer. If I had all the time in the world, I would really love to work with several lawyers because I know they have what it takes to inspire me. I love working with other people and learning from them. This is in addition to the fact that I get to measure my capabilities whenever I work with other people under pressure and certain expectations.
1. I got my dream internship. It meant a lot for me. God knows how I worked hard preparing my resumes and commuting to personally hand my application envelopes in Makati, Taguig and Ortigas. One interview I had was on the same day I took my Tax midterms. I know it had a detrimental effect on my exam but as my forever mantra would say: charge it to experience. I really enjoyed applying because I got to see offices. I enjoyed having interviews because it somehow tested my ability to answer unexpected questions and hold conversations without boring the interviewer. If I had all the time in the world, I would really love to work with several lawyers because I know they have what it takes to inspire me. I love working with other people and learning from them. This is in addition to the fact that I get to measure my capabilities whenever I work with other people under pressure and certain expectations.
I am so excited for my summer. I am excited to learn new things and work with other law students from other schools and from Ateneo, including the no-other-than-smartest-person-in-our-batch-who-is-the-incarnation-of-MAGIS.
PS: My heartfelt gratitude goes to the people I kept on asking to come up with decisions: Jay, Batch Mars, Lyn, Sis Les, Kuya Neil, Bang, Rizza, a lot of friends from AHRC.
2. I flunked exams. Midterm results for some subjects have been released. I flunked some (in literal sense) and barely passed the others. I really don't know why or how it happened. I studied my lessons. There were just subjects I can barely comprehend - like Tax. But anyway, Tax can be both the most frustrating and enlightening experience I will ever have in my life. So, hi, yes to the universe. I am just hoping that if I give it my best and comply with what is expected of me, the universe will help me make it through the semester. This semester is tough (like the toughest one I have ever had?)
3. I "loved?" I thought I have met someone perfect to be a guy partner or anything and I thought I loved? But probably not. It could not be love because it has gone tired. I don't know. I really don't know. I also am not sure I'm tired. Probably not? Probably trying to convince myself I am tired for the self to stop and not get hurt tomorrow or some other time? Adele sang "I won't let you close enough to hurt me." Well, I still like the guy but he doesn't give a damn, so K thanks bye? But we are friends? And I just don't know how to deal with it - I mean falling for someone (first time in law school) who doesn't give a damn. Or I really don't know. Spent too much time caring? And making it the center of my solar system when it should have been the sun? Bottomline: I allowed myself to be hurt once more, and not by another person, but by the creations of my imaginations and dreams that it might work?
4. I am part of the Roll of Honors. I think grades are not everything but I am a firm believer that they are important. So, I am happy to be part of the Roll of Honors because it justifies the efforts of the people sending me to school and the hopes of others who expect something from me. I am way down there but I am a thankful for it. There were times I wish I did not have to work but then again, how will I cope with everyday if I don't have work? Thank you Lord so much for still giving me the things I want even if I feel like I don't deserve them all. I mean, I am just a student who sleep my ass off whenever I am dead tired. Thank you to my family who always listen (in spite of my almost regular rants about school and how hard it is to study, work and commute for almost 3 hours a day). I am the person who rant a lot but still work on it. I don't know I have grown to feel like ranting will make me accomplish something better - because it recognizes the adversity and challenge and at the same time acknowledges the capability of the self to endure? But oh well, I should stop ranting sometimes HAHA!
PS: Thank you again to the people who continuously inspire: Sir Ryan, Sir Arpee, Sir Vallente, and the like. Friends esp. Mau, Al, Bernz, Patrick and another girl from UP Law (whom I've never met but inspired me a lot after I read stories about her, well I stalk a lot that's given). Well, of course, friends outside law school who continue to live simply and humbly even if they already earn a lot. Thank you also Mommy Ana for helping me in every way possible. The world is so blessed with people like you.
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